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Something I really hate about myself. Whenever I'm watching a movie with realistic gore, or someone talks about stuff like that or hospital related stuff, I break out in a cold sweat, get tunnel vision, hear ringing in my ears, then procede to pass out. I've only passed out once or twice, but I feel like a wuss. Today I watched Blade ][ with some friends. Of course, it happened again and I spent about half of the movie outside the theater on a bench or watching the movie close to the doors. I have no control over this and my friends seem to be unable to understand this. Even Teresa doesn't belive me. I just want to be able to enjoy movies like Blade 2 or TV shows like ER without passing out. I can't even be in a hospital unless I'm the one being treated. Strangely that doesn't have the same affect on me. I'm thinking it has something to do with my overactive imagination going overboard or something, but I don't know. All I know is that I hate it.